In the big leagues now... Woop woop!!

l have started my new adventures with something fresh!!! I now have my own .com.... Holy guacamole!!!! Ohhhh yeah!!! It is http://strawberrylou.com and you will notice the title of my new blog is different from my web address, I just changed the name of it a few days ago. It's coming together!! I wish I had money to spend on some of their cuter themes because I would love to have them!! Sooo anyway, feel free to check out my new adventure, that I'm trying very hard to stay up to date with!! Hope u like it! :)

She's going into FREAK OUT MODE!

I think it's finally hitting me that this time next year, there could be a possibility of having my own classroom.  My own classroom of 20 kids.  20 minds to mold on my own. The responsibility of teaching them everything they need to know to go to the next year.  I suddenly feel like I have no experience what so ever and I have no clue what I'm doing.  I know student teaching will help tremendously, it's just an overwhelming feeling.  I've been looking at pinterest for ideas, and thinking to myself how on earth am I ever going to be ready to have my own class??  And the supplies needed to make it run smoothly?  I'm thinking it would be wise to start now getting little tid bits for my hopefully future class.  It's honestly really scary thinking about it.  Luckily I have a sister that has had 6 years as a teacher to pick her brain, but it's not like I can have her in the classroom with me?!?!?  I suddenly feel as if I'm a scared child or something.  I know this is HUGE DEAL, one that I've been looking forward for sometime, and maybe it's just that I honestly don't know what to expect.  Once the first day goes by, it will breeze by. 

Another thing that REALLY has me flipping out over, is the interviews.  Thinking about them makes me so nervous I want to puke.  I've read some questions online about some of the regular questions that they ask and ....wow.  I'M SCARED!!!!  I don't think I'd be that terrified if I knew that I'd just have to be interviewed by the principal, but it's not.  It's a whole panel of teachers!!!  Nothing like 12 eyes staring at you when you roughly babel out an answer to a tough question.  EPPPPP!!!

I guess I shouldn't worry about it until I make it through this semester of 17 credit hours.  BLEK!  :)

Grumpfest and Copy Cats.

Grumpy Alert! I'm just saying, I didn't get that much sleep at all last night, Jett woke up SEVERAL times saying he was scared and so I would walk him back into his room, wait for him to fall back asleep and like maybe an hour later, he'd wake up again and I'd have to do the same thing.  Then thinking that I could just sleep in because I thought sure he'd be exhausted, I was very wrong! He got up as soon as Jared left for work so I didn't get to catch up on any sleep. :(  So I'm not in the best of moods today.

Anyway here is my gripe...

Yeah yeah yeah... I'm too old to be saying this... again, but GRRRRR! Seriously, why can't people do their own thing... and NOT MINE!!

We have worked REALLY hard on our house, we made it our own, and seriously my kitchen is my pride and joy.  No one... has anything like my kitchen, and I made it a little bit crazy just so that no one will try and do anything like my kitchen.  I have selected pieces that are ME, that a little weird, colorful, unique, that I've had in my head since I was in Jr. High!  My retroish/modern kitchen.  So of course, I guess it's only natural for me to feel a bit defensive when I see something somewhat similar to mine, or at least a few little things.  I just saw pictures of someone redoing their kitchen and low and behold... teal KITCHEN walls (which wasn't the biggest ordeal...i know it's just a color), the biggest URK of mine was they had MY CLOCK.... my super unique, funky little spoons and forks clock on their wall, it wasn't colored like mine, but it was all silver.  I'm like.... WHAT???  I know it probably is pretty easy to make, but ....... ugggg.  It just bites, because that is my favorite piece in my kitchen .... my FAVORITE (besides my yellow fridge)... and I have obviously took tons of pictures of my kitchen and it's been all over FB so everyone can see what we have been doing to our house because I was super excited about it.  I guess if someone comes up with a yellow fridge that will really tick me off, because I seriously no NOONE that has one.  I guess with the clock, it's just a clock and honestly it shouldn't be huge deal, but stuff like that just really gets under my skin very easily.  You try to be original and then.. little stuff like this starts happening.  I'm not going to lie or hide the fact that this is absolutley ridiculous and incredibly childish...hahaha.  It is just one of my pet peeves that has always bugged me.  Someday I will be at a point that I couldn't care or less, but right now I feel like griping about it. haha.  I know there has to be someone out there that feels the same way I do.  .... Come on wouldn't that bother you just a tad bit?

Oh well, I guess I can be flattered that my kitchen is now inspiration for someone else...  ....gah!

Awkward should be my first name... uggg.

I don't know what it is that triggers it, but something in me just escapes and I feel like a complete idiot, whe I look back at the situation.  I think I try so hard to act like myself, that I just beome this annoying talkative weirdo.  Ugggg. 

Awkward Girl Strikes Again with Mumbo Jumbo Conversation!

I was sitting with my husband and son eating dinner, when in walks my hopefully future boss lady!  She was also my teacher in a couple of my classes in college, and I will hopefully be student teaching at my home town school district, where she happens to also be the new principal.  That was a bit of a mouthful.   Anyway, I was very friendly throughout our little conversation, but there were times when I was saying all sorts of random things and I could hear how ridiculous I sounded.  I probably sounded more like an excited little kid then a future teacher.  ....Sigh.  I wish they had anti-awkward pills, or some sort of socially-challenged class I could take, because after tonight I just feel really stupid.  BLERGGG. 

Awkwardly Boring.

This is one of my pet peeves with people, I know I do it too sometimes when I'm not thinking straight, but I get it all the time and I'm like... am I really that uninteresting of a person??  You know when someone asks you something and then you start telling them the about this something and then they get distracted by something else that someone else said and so they don't pay attention, and then you realize that they obviously aren't, so you stop talking.  Then maybe if your lucky, they will say something like, "Ohhh sorry, go ahead!" .....and then you just feel like your story is dull and long and is never getting to a point, so you say something like it's no big deal, "Oh that's okay I'll tell you later about it."

I just want to be unawkward for a change, is that so much to ask?  I've tried the whole, embrace your awkwardness phase, and yeah I'm just too awkward to be one of the COOL awkward people... hahaha...

Yes, I am going to be "one" of those mothers.

Not gonna lie.

I'm feeling an enormous amount of anxiety right now.

Almost to the point of throwing up, and part of that could be the fact that I need to eat something and I've been drinking diet soda all morning.  Stupid hypoglycemic-ness. 

Anyway.  I was reading on FB that someone asked about the first day of school, and they said the 15th.  I was like oh, well that's still a lot of time still.  So I looked at a calendar for August.  BAD IDEA.  I saw that I pretty much have ONE WEEK till then.

ONE WEEK.

Until This baby boy of mine...

Goes to Kindergarten.  Oh jeeezeee...

How in the world did time pass by so quickly?? :(

Sigh.....

I know I'm going to let him ride the bus, because he wanted to so bad, but that first day I want to take him there.  I probably should charge my camera now...haha.  Uggg.  Homeschooling doesn't sound so bad right now. hahaha! I know this will be good for him though.  Recently I read an amazing book that had a few paragraphs that the main character was telling about her candid thoughts about parenting.  It made me laugh, and I was secretly agreeing with her too....

"I’m unclear about the fine line of good parenting and being overly protective. He wants to walk to a friend’s house; I want him to stay inside and draw while I sit on the front porch with a shotgun across my lap like Granny Clampett.”  .... hehe. :)  Traveling Mercies by Anne Lamott... pretty interesting read.

After this week is over, I'm going to be finally finished with my summer classes, so my plan is to start making a routine for us.  Waking up, getting ready, ORGANIZATION, and bedtimes.

Wish me luck... because I know I'm going to need it. 

I plan on being an emotional mess that first day.  Yep.  I will be one of those moms. 

Book Love!

Ahhh new books! I can't wait to finish up my full week of dreadful essays and research papers and to start reading my new books that came today!! :)

I've wanted to read the superhero book for awhile. Anything to guide me in a positive direction with my son. Then A Fresh-Brewed Life was recommended in one of my classes and I was very curious to read it.

Maybe this is a new beginning for me, finally getting in the groove again with reading books! That is until I have no time for anything else when school starts...

The Smallest Details

Of my awesome kitchen, that I'm so proud of!!!

I'm pretty sure everyone looked at me like I was crazy and I had no sense of style when I told them what my plans were for my kitchen. I knew exactly what I wanted. I feel very blessed that I had a husband that let me do just that even if he looked at me weird when I told him I wanted a yellow fridge! :)

We are getting the final touches done to the kitchen, I just have a few more things I want to get for the walls, but for the time being I wanted to share the small little details that I love so much! .... And sorry about the picture quality! My big camera needed charged so I just used my phone.

Strange Happenings.

Some random mumbo jumbo.


I'm reading an amazing book. Traveling Mercies. I Love the author's candidness and humor.  Soooo good!! I'm going to have to find more of her books!

Why is it when I'm not doing anything to lose weight and I'm pretty sure the last two weeks have been nothing but laziness and junky food, apparently I lose weight?  I've had a handful of people ask me or rather tell me it looked like I was losing weight. ahhhh. Makes me feel so much better.  I guess the not so stressed out self is better for me.

I've finally caught up on the new episodes of True Blood, and I missed it so much! It's sooooo good! I wish it was on all the time or at least I wish I had HBO.

Yep that's about it, partly because I'm so tired I'm falling asleep writing this.

I didn't forget you ol' bloggity bloo!

I've finally found a little down time, so I knew I needed to give my blog a little attention.
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.. Some new things.  A little more settled into our house, yet still a billion things that need to get done, but they are slowly getting done.

 Last week I was completely stressed out, my grandma fell, broke her hip and my entire family was up at the hospital and I couldn't be because I had a pile of online homework that HAD to be done by midnight.  Not to mention some crazy work drama that had come to my attention as well.  BLEH!  I was so flustered this time last week, but so so sooooo much better today.  I got my homework completed earlier and my family and I have had a really nice relaxing day together.

Yesterday Jared and his dad worked on the kitchen floors, they weren't in the best shape ever and I'm pretty sure someone could have fell through them if they jumped on it hard enough.  I'm getting very excited for my awesome black and white tiles to be laid down!!!! EEKKK!  My dream kitchen is finally beginning to come together (even if it's not a big kitchen).

Oh yeah, and Jared and I have enjoyed sitting our back deck while Jett played in the big back yard.  It has been so nice to just sit outside and not be bothered by people watching you, or the neighbor kids coming over and then you being the one to watch them while their grandparents or parents go do something apparently much more important.  I'm SOOOOOO GLAD we have MOVED!  I will be even happier when we get a privacy fence put up on one side of our house just for the extra privacy.  So so HAPPY! Now for some random pictures!

 My two handsome boys chilling out in our new backyard.

A goofy boy in his new hideout, a dishwasher box!

One of my pinterest projects! 

Book rack for Jett.  I also have a yellow one for myself as well. 

My NEW OVEN!!!

 We thought about getting a used white one and spray painting it red, but we couldn't find any white ones that were really in that great of shape and then we couldn't find any SAFE OVEN spray paint, so we just decided to get black appliances.

 Love my kitchen and all my stuff I have for it goes sooooo well together!!

my purple bedroom!

Jett's new car bed from Grandma and papa!

I love the new color of our shed, and no it's not this color of blue... it's almost the same color as my kitchen, more like a teal.  It was very weird that every time I took a picture of the shed the color wouldn't come out like it really was.  Anyway it looks awesome!



LOVING MY NEW HOUSE!

Still lots of stuff to do to our house, but here's a sneek peek!

My CLOCK!

MY Bathroom

My kitchen and my hubby

 MY YELLOW FRIDGE!!!

My little guy's room!

So excited for our new adventures here.

More pictures to come soon.

Patience Grasshopper...Patience

I'm going to go nuts.  I'm seeing so many AWESOME things I NEED for my new house and I really need to wait till we actually get moved in first, but ahhhhhh!!!! I can't hold it much longer!!! I want to go thrift shopping and find retro everything, I've made a list of flea markets I need to stop at and then I will go straight to the funky antique shops!  If it was up to me my entire house would probably look like it was from the 60's-70's .  I want some funky furniture!  I don't want boring blah furniture.  EEEEKKK!  I have no patience!  Although I have a billion and one things to do, I can't help but want to hurry up and get my furniture!!  I'm freakin out and getting so excited!!!!!

yeah, this is just a few of the just plain AWESOME things I found.  I'm just going to have to find a cheepy desk and paint it yellow.  I LOVE THAT!!! and that COUCH! OMG!!!!!!!  Seriously beautiful!!! ..... uuuhhhhggg.

Shut the Front Door! Holy Guacamole....

I almost read an entire book in a day! (...ummm yeah because my assignment was due tonight..)

It was so freaking depressing though.  Gah.  It was Interpreter of Maladies by Jhumpi Lahiri (hopefully I spelled it right) Some of the stories were really entertaining, they were just sad and depressing.  Although I read it a lot easier than the Mark Twain books.  I may not have much of a summer I'm afraid.  I think between reading all of these books, doing all of the writing for the classes about these books, getting things accomplished at the new house, and getting things squared away for the start of school (my baby is going to kindergarten... holy crap!), I am not going to have any time at all, so bare with me if I don't post something for like a week, or two weeks or so. :)

I'm attempting to dive into my next story of Mark Twains'.... Ugg.  It's pretty long too. I hate to procrastinate on it, because I want my weekend free, but blerg!!  I'm actually excited about some of my other books I get to read for my women's writers class though, they seem really interesting.

I think we should already get a redo of June, it's going by so fast already!  I have so much to do, so little time!!!

Sorry super boring post!

Yummy!

Since we've been working on the house, I've been pretty much exhausted and when it comes time to eat I get to the point where I don't care and just want some sort of food, unfortunately most of it has been fast food.  So the other day when I was grocery shopping I took time to think of some healthier options for myself.  I KNEW these two items... vanilla greek yogurt and nectarines... two of my favorite things (and healthy I might add) would be perfect for a quick breakfast.  I've had this the past two mornings, so delishhh!!

My lovely list of 15 Things to do before turning 30!

Yes I chose 15 because 30 seemed a bit extensive, therefore I thought cutting the list in half would be a bit more realistic to achieve.  I haven't done one of these for quite sometime, so I thought now would be good timing to make my list as it is quickly approaching... EKK! I'm 27 now, but in just a few years and the BIG 3...0 will hit me like a ton of bricks!!  Am I scared.  Nah.  It's a number.  I have plans already in the making for that day as well. :) :) :)

My 15 THINGS

to

have mastered

 and completed by

my 30th BIRTHDAY.

1.  Have another baby.  Even if this means I will be prego at the time of my 30th bday.  I think by then is almost perfect timing.  I definitely don't want a baby NOW!  Everyone and their grandma is prego right now, or just having a baby.  It's like a epidemic!!! Anywho that's not my problem, my problem is next spring I'm student teaching, I could never work that chaos out where it would all work out.  I'm thinking after my first year of teaching would be fine.  I want to focus on my very first year of teaching before diving into babyhood again. :)  I keep thinking about it and I can see myself having another little boy... I love the name I've had forever for another little guy and no one has this awesome name that is why I'm not speaking a word of it. I also would love to have a girl, I would love to have a redheaded brown eyed little lady named... (my list is growing).    Anyway that is the obvious #1.

2. Family Vacation to... anywhere but Missouri.
I want Jared, Jett and I to go on a road trip somewhere.  It can't be in Missouri though.  I want to go somewhere new, it doesn't have to be a beach either, but I would eventually like to see the ocean.  I would also LOVE to see the REDWOOD FOREST.  I don't know why but I've always wanted to see the trees!!!  One day... oh yes... one day we are going to travel to England and Ireland.  Those two are my top two HAVE TO BEFORE I DIE traveling spots. 

3. Get a teaching job at my hometown school!!!
Well, this of course is the tricky one.  This scares me to death.  I've already been okayed by the principal to student teacher there, so I will at least be familiar with most of the teachers.  I'm just scared of the interviewing process.  Just thinking about it makes me wanna puke!  I get worked up with a lot other things, but this freaks me out more than anything.  I almost wish Drury U would put on some sort of mock interviewing session.  I just want practice...  speaking in front of adults has never really been my strong suit.  SOOOO SCARED!  This has been my goal from when I decided to start down the teaching path, I wanted to teach in hometown.  It's my comfort zone.  Plus the principal that was just hired there for next year use to be one of my teachers at Drury U and she was amazing, I learned so much from her.  She was incredibly compassionate, knowledgeable, and an amazing person.  I just really hope I get a job there, but I know I'm going to be fighting a ton of other people for a job and that is what really scares me.... :/

4. Get back to my pre-Jett weight... maybe even a little less.
Ugg... to be thin again.  Yep.  One day the skinnier girl will return oh yes she will.. haha.

5.  Possibly own a VW bug.  That's my dream car.  Seriously I would LOVEEE to have one, I think they are adorable.

6.  READ MORE!!
I have so many books I want to read and I feel I never have time to read them.  I have a stack of TO READ books already and I absolutely love going to BARNS and NOBLES

7. Write More!!
Writing has always been something that I've loved to do.  I use to love poetry.  It was really childish stuff, but I've always had a passion for it.  I've also loved writing in my journals just about random things.  I would love at one point in my life to have something published, I would love to write my own book(s).  I had a poem of mine published in a book, but it was all from a website so I'm not so sure it was a big deal.

8. Master Organization.
This is my enemy.  Organizing things.  I know that my life would be so much easier if I would just try a little harder to organize and keep things organized.  I'm so weird, I have a bit of OCD about things, and get antsy when my house is just a crazy disaster, but then there are days that I'm just exhausted and I don't care what it looks like.  I'm hoping since we are moving, that I can just start over with good habits of organization.  Hopefully that is.

9. COOK... A LOT!
I'm really debating about trying to eat "CLEAN".  I read a lot of recipes that I would LOVE to try and they are really simple.  I'm also hoping when we move that since we won't be right in town that we will stop eating out so much.  I really need to just COOK more, and not the easy way out like frozen dinners in a bag, I really want to do some from scratch meals that will be healthy for everyone.

10. Try a lot harder not to let people and their words bother me!!!
This has been my struggle since I can remember. I take everything personally. I think a lot of my self esteem issues has to do with 1st and foremost my mother. She really doesn't think before she says something. Then there are the people I have once and still today have somehow surrounded myself with. People that say they are your friend but really just bring you down. Don't get me wrong this has gotten a whole lot better since I got married and separated myself from a few people, but still today there remains a few I keep telling myself are really good people most of the time, but then they do something that really makes you question yourself ???? And this is a friend of mine?? And they are treating me like nothing in my life matters to them.. ??? Yeah. I guess I have always been that girl that you can walk all over because I try and care about everyone even if they do something mean to me. I've let a few people have a lot more chances than others and I'm starting to see their true colors which is just making me sick. Okay enough ranting on this one.

11. Have better self-confidence.
I guess 10 and 11 are somewhat similar, but this one is just for me have a little higher self esteem. I'm sick of focusing on the negativity. I need to clear my head and have a better image of myself. I know I'm a big girl, but I'm working on getting healthy. I know I have horrible skin, but I do everything I can to try and clear it up. I may not wear that much make up, but I honestly shouldn't have to to feel beautiful. I had an acquaintance recently suggest a book that helps with women that continuously focus on the bad things about themselves and I'm going to find it and hopefully that will at least lighten my spirit a bit.

12. Become closer to God in my own way.
This is a touchy subject with some people I know, but I feel like I need to do something different. Would going to church help, probably a little. I would really like to find a new church. Something that all of us can genuinely enjoy. I would really like my husband to join me on this adventure and definitely include Jett. I guess it really hit me the other day when Jett told me "Mom, when we move and I sleep in my new room, if I'm scared I ask God to help me so I'm not scared."  I was just floored.  I knew about his conversation with his teacher the day before because she told how unique and interesting the conversations were of these 5 year olds.  They have a couple of foster kids as well living with new families, a little girl that her parents are separated, and Jett, that is moving to a new house.  She said they were all a little scared about their new surroundings so she put them at ease and told them to pray and God would protect them.  When I heard those words come from my son that has very rarely stepped inside of a church, I almost started crying.  I don't know really if it's a find a church thing or just start small with maybe praying before bed with him.  I don't want to force religion on him, but I want him to know that God is here if he wants to learn about him.

13. Get updated on my scrapbooks, photo albums, and anything else that holds memories!
I'm so behind, sooooo very behind on all of this!! I'm determined to print out pictures and get some scrap booking stuff going!!  I NEED TO! There's about 5 years lacking in all of my photo albums.  I was really good that first year, I even documented a lot of stuff in my journal as well.  Slacker me, hasn't done anything like that in awhile. :/

14. Have a getaway weekend with the hubaroo!
I've always wanted to do this, just to get away with just Jared on a weekend.  Some spontaneous road trip somewhere.  Nothing fancy, just one of those crazy amazing weekends just to get away.  If I didn't have so much going on right now, I'd say now would be perfect because I really do need to get away from people pronto!

15. Come up with another 15 things to accomplish and achieve them that are not on my list. HA!  Some of these seem pretty easy to accomplish with a little work involved, others seem like huge life events and others just take a little time and money.  I think that most of these can get done in a couple of years, but we will see.  Hopefully I can tackle some of the big stuff at least! :)

Things that make you go... hmmmm...?!?!

Hmmmmmmm......



The list of things that URK me is honestly quite large, but I've really tried to behave myself and let a LOT of little things slide by me without causing some sort of dramatic showdown.  Lately though... I'm just about to lose it with people.  I think it's partly because I'm exhausted from working almost everyday on the new house.  Today we decided to take a day off and just bum out.  I feel super slouchy and sleepy and groggy.  I've slept probably a little too much today.  Anyway, back to my lurvely list.  I think I'm just going to start numbering them.

1.  My mom.

Oh my word.  Gripe-fest. She told me this week that she thought the house we bought looked like a "dump" before we started working on it.  Then we painted our garage door deep red and she said she "doesn't care for it, it makes the house look shorter."  I'm pretty sure if we bought a PERFECT house that she would gripe about something.  We've worked so hard on this house, and there is nothing we can do about the inside of it yet until closing.  The house hasn't been lived in a long time and it's a old house, so yeah there is a musty old house smell.  My mom told my sister in law yesterday while I went into another room that "This house smells so bad!"  My patience with her is about to break.  I've always tried to do the whole.."If you don't have anything nice to say than don't say anything at all", but sometimes I really think she needs to HEAR what I have to say.  Sigh....... I think when we finally get settled in, Jared, Jett, and I will be major hermits from family for a while.

2. My other relative (she who shall not be named) <--- for a little dramatic effect.

She's about 15 years older than me I believe.  She's burned every bridge that people have built for her.  She's had every excuse in the book.  She's so very very dramatic.  She doesn't talk to you unless there is something major going on, or if there is something dramatic happening in some other relatives lives she wants to know whats going on.  She has to be the center of attention or she gets just crazy.  She's in her 40's but usually acts like she's 16.  She has borrowed a ton... of money from her friends and family and hasn't even tried to pay it back.  She thinks that when she's in town, everyone should stop what they have planned and plan something with her (this drives me insane).  She's caused a lot of unwanted chaos, stirs up drama, and just really makes everyone mad.  ......this is only half of it.  What really URKS me is...  she claims she's a christian woman.  She's very vocal about being christian.  The only thing is she does this all on facebook.  Instead of apologizing for something... or trying to finding out what she can do to better herself she claims everyone else is in the wrong because they aren't doing what is right by God and forgiving her.  She wrote a passage from the bible the other day about forgiveness and it's so crazy to me because how do we forgive her for the things she's done when she hasn't even tried to make amends with anyone, even herself.  At one time I thought she really had her stuff together and was really TRYING, but the last few episodes of hers have really thrown that out the window.  It sucks even more because I reached out to her when things in her life were really going down hill, I went out of my way to be there for her and it really didn't seem to phase her much.  Now that I've had my eyes opened to what all is going on with her and what she has done, just disgusts me honestly and it's sad that she has to put the words of GOD on facebook to try and make us feel guilty.  I really wish she could just look at herself in the mirror and see how much she's just torturing herself and her family.  I think most of us have went to just ignoring her, because once you give her any attention at all, she just walks all over you.  I hate it, because I use to love being around her and hearing her stories and hearing her giggle.  Now I just don't know what to think. :(





3. What the heckaroo is up with my body?!?!

This has nothing to do with anyone but myself.  Here I've worked almost a constant week on our house, REAL LABOR PEOPLE!!! hahaa! I thought maybe this will help me shed some pounds!!! Nope. Gaining it back again.  Ugggg.  Not to mention my face is so broke out horribly now from all the chemicals outside.  It's all just disgusting believe me.  I haven't worried about wearing make-up while working on the house because I usually just end up getting paint splattered on my face or it just sweats off.  I'm so stinking chubby, but I've come to the conclusion that pretty much any kind of stress whether it be exciting stress or just plain bad stress really messes with my eating behaviors.  Even though I thought I was eating normally, I know for a fact I was drinking a lot of soda because I felt drained of energy.  We did eat more fast food this week because of going back and forth to the new house (stupid decision).  So this week I really need to get my act together, since I'm not going up there as much.

4.  We have to wait another week before we close on the house.... BOO! :(

Yeah... this URKS me, but I know that it also might be good for Jared and I because we do need time to get all of our stuff purged, sorted, and packed at our present home.  Plus having another week may give us more time to plan on some of the ideas for the inside of the new house as well.


Sorry for the super long post... but I needed to get some of the BLEHHH stuff off my chest, that way you don't have to read a whole weeks worth of it. :)  I will try with some more happier posts later on. 

Some Camera Fun!

Feeling Old, Fat, and Annoyed.

Today I was sitting around a table with four other girls, all of which are quite a bit younger than me, at least 6 or 7 years younger.  I've come to like these ladies quite a bit, they are all super nice.  Today though, I decided how old and fat I really felt being around them.  They are all tan, super skinny, beach blondish hair, and just gorgeous girls.  Believe me when I say it's a bit depressing some days.  If I didn't feel super fugly before, I definitely do now! hahaha!  Actually I do enjoy most...  most of the conversations I have with them.  Today though it was about having babies, gaining weight, losing weight, how much everyone weighed at the end of their pregnancies, boobs, boob jobs, stretch marks and so on and so forth.  I opted out of that conversation for the most part.  Sometimes I'm better off saying nothing.  It really sucks when someone says they got HUGE when they were 9 months and weighed 160lbs... and here I am, not prego and 185lbs.  Ugg. :(  There's always some sort of conversation about their bodies and really what can I add to that conversation???  Ummm yeah so I've been struggling with my weight for a good three years now, trying every diet under the sun.  I eat healthy food, but that's obviously not working for me.  It just sucks. I literally feel like the big elephant in the room.  Honestly, it's really childish but it makes me wonder a little what is said about me when I'm not there.  Fat girl jokes? Oh why doesn't she just work out a little, it's not that hard??? Why on earth was she wearing that, does she know how she looks?? .... ya I know, they probably don't say anything like that, but I can't help but think it in my head.  There was also at one point that I wanted to bang my head against the table.... really I did!  One girl said.... "I'd always have so much money when I waited tables and guys would come in, I'd get some really huge tips from them"  I was like... wow.  Really? Let's not brag anymore about how hot we are, I'm pretty sure everyone KNOWS!!  That one was driving me insane, she kept interrupting everyone with something SHE needed to say and it was always either bragging about herself or degrading something about someone.  I was like... please shoot me now!  Anyway  that about sums my lovely little day today.

My Favorite Boy in the WORLD!

A little bit about my milk and cookies-mustached buddy boy.

Jett Asher Day

age 5

Red Headed

Brown Eyed

Cutie Patootie!

Loves to Dance

 (this boy has some serious moves!!)

Loves to eat pop-tarts, pizza, lunchables, nutrigrain bars, chicken nuggets, spaghetti noodles (no sauce), and salads.

Loves Music

(Loves anything with a good beat)

Love Movies

( Loves Wizard of Oz and anything superhero related)

Loves Books

( Loves his Dr. Seuss Books)

Loves Kool-Aid

Loves to make up silly words and pretend he speaks another language

Loves to play outside

Loves to tackle and wrestle with Dad

Loves to cuddle with Mom

Love this guy!

Can't believe he's growing up so fast.

 

A House of a Different Color.

So right now I'm trying to picture this color scheme (bottom picture) with the house we are buying (top picture).  This is what my husband said HE WANTED... only he kept saying black trim, but I couldn't find any pictures of just black trim.  I really do like the black shutters and red door though.  Our door is reddish right now, but it needs to be repainted.   I like it.  I think it will add a little character to our house.  It also needs some major landscaping around the front too. 

Anyway...  we got good news this evening ... so I'm a little less stressed than I was earlier.  I can breath!  This weekend is going to be fun... even though it's going to be work, at least we are making progress.

Giddy about the Strangest Things....

So lately to keep my mind off of the negative parts of all this house stuff...  I keep thinking about how I want my house to look.  There is one thing I HAVE TO HAVE... that I have always wanted.... some sort of booth or banquette for a kitche table and seating.  Always Always wanted one! My bestaroo has a really cute wooden banquette and it fits really good in her kitchen.  Here is a picture of the kitchen right now, be aware we have not started working on anything inside yet, so this WILL change.  I'm debating about painting the cabinets white, but not sure the color scheme yet.  I'm also determined to have black and white tile flooring too.  I've wanted that since I was young.  I tried to get my mom and dad to let me have black and white tile flooring when they built their new house when I was 13.  It didn't happen.  So now...  that is one of my have to dos!

The kitchen now... 

So I'm thinking there maybe enough room along that wall to easily put at least the bench part and possibly the wrap around part of a banquette. 

Uggg.  I can't wait to get working on this kitchen... It needs a transformation bad.  I wish I had LOTS of money to put into it.  We also have to get new appliances for it as well.  I keep picturing my black and white tile floors and white cabinets... I just don't know what color of walls I want yet.  Something that makes it pop!  Anyway... here's some of my banquette I would LOVE to have!!!!

I just put this one on here because it's almost the same

concept.  I love the bookcase turned bench.  I'd love to do this

in Jett's room.  It would be a GREAT way to store his endless amount of little toys!!

 I'm pretty sure this one ^ is my favorite.

I just really like the colors with it and it has the look I think

I'm aiming for... a little retroish..

I'm hoping to hear good news tonight.  It could go either way tonight, but I'm trying to keep positive about all of this instead of stressing even more.  I just wish we could officially say the house is ours now... but it won't be for a few weeks. :/  Blerg.