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Feeling Old, Fat, and Annoyed.

Today I was sitting around a table with four other girls, all of which are quite a bit younger than me, at least 6 or 7 years younger.  I've come to like these ladies quite a bit, they are all super nice.  Today though, I decided how old and fat I really felt being around them.  They are all tan, super skinny, beach blondish hair, and just gorgeous girls.  Believe me when I say it's a bit depressing some days.  If I didn't feel super fugly before, I definitely do now! hahaha!  Actually I do enjoy most...  most of the conversations I have with them.  Today though it was about having babies, gaining weight, losing weight, how much everyone weighed at the end of their pregnancies, boobs, boob jobs, stretch marks and so on and so forth.  I opted out of that conversation for the most part.  Sometimes I'm better off saying nothing.  It really sucks when someone says they got HUGE when they were 9 months and weighed 160lbs... and here I am, not prego and 185lbs.  Ugg. :(  There's always some sort of conversation about their bodies and really what can I add to that conversation???  Ummm yeah so I've been struggling with my weight for a good three years now, trying every diet under the sun.  I eat healthy food, but that's obviously not working for me.  It just sucks. I literally feel like the big elephant in the room.  Honestly, it's really childish but it makes me wonder a little what is said about me when I'm not there.  Fat girl jokes? Oh why doesn't she just work out a little, it's not that hard??? Why on earth was she wearing that, does she know how she looks?? .... ya I know, they probably don't say anything like that, but I can't help but think it in my head.  There was also at one point that I wanted to bang my head against the table.... really I did!  One girl said.... "I'd always have so much money when I waited tables and guys would come in, I'd get some really huge tips from them"  I was like... wow.  Really? Let's not brag anymore about how hot we are, I'm pretty sure everyone KNOWS!!  That one was driving me insane, she kept interrupting everyone with something SHE needed to say and it was always either bragging about herself or degrading something about someone.  I was like... please shoot me now!  Anyway  that about sums my lovely little day today.

My Favorite Boy in the WORLD!

A little bit about my milk and cookies-mustached buddy boy.

Jett Asher Day

age 5

Red Headed

Brown Eyed

Cutie Patootie!

Loves to Dance

 (this boy has some serious moves!!)

Loves to eat pop-tarts, pizza, lunchables, nutrigrain bars, chicken nuggets, spaghetti noodles (no sauce), and salads.

Loves Music

(Loves anything with a good beat)

Love Movies

( Loves Wizard of Oz and anything superhero related)

Loves Books

( Loves his Dr. Seuss Books)

Loves Kool-Aid

Loves to make up silly words and pretend he speaks another language

Loves to play outside

Loves to tackle and wrestle with Dad

Loves to cuddle with Mom

Love this guy!

Can't believe he's growing up so fast.

 

A House of a Different Color.

So right now I'm trying to picture this color scheme (bottom picture) with the house we are buying (top picture).  This is what my husband said HE WANTED... only he kept saying black trim, but I couldn't find any pictures of just black trim.  I really do like the black shutters and red door though.  Our door is reddish right now, but it needs to be repainted.   I like it.  I think it will add a little character to our house.  It also needs some major landscaping around the front too. 

Anyway...  we got good news this evening ... so I'm a little less stressed than I was earlier.  I can breath!  This weekend is going to be fun... even though it's going to be work, at least we are making progress.

Giddy about the Strangest Things....

So lately to keep my mind off of the negative parts of all this house stuff...  I keep thinking about how I want my house to look.  There is one thing I HAVE TO HAVE... that I have always wanted.... some sort of booth or banquette for a kitche table and seating.  Always Always wanted one! My bestaroo has a really cute wooden banquette and it fits really good in her kitchen.  Here is a picture of the kitchen right now, be aware we have not started working on anything inside yet, so this WILL change.  I'm debating about painting the cabinets white, but not sure the color scheme yet.  I'm also determined to have black and white tile flooring too.  I've wanted that since I was young.  I tried to get my mom and dad to let me have black and white tile flooring when they built their new house when I was 13.  It didn't happen.  So now...  that is one of my have to dos!

The kitchen now... 

So I'm thinking there maybe enough room along that wall to easily put at least the bench part and possibly the wrap around part of a banquette. 

Uggg.  I can't wait to get working on this kitchen... It needs a transformation bad.  I wish I had LOTS of money to put into it.  We also have to get new appliances for it as well.  I keep picturing my black and white tile floors and white cabinets... I just don't know what color of walls I want yet.  Something that makes it pop!  Anyway... here's some of my banquette I would LOVE to have!!!!

I just put this one on here because it's almost the same

concept.  I love the bookcase turned bench.  I'd love to do this

in Jett's room.  It would be a GREAT way to store his endless amount of little toys!!

 I'm pretty sure this one ^ is my favorite.

I just really like the colors with it and it has the look I think

I'm aiming for... a little retroish..

I'm hoping to hear good news tonight.  It could go either way tonight, but I'm trying to keep positive about all of this instead of stressing even more.  I just wish we could officially say the house is ours now... but it won't be for a few weeks. :/  Blerg.

Ohhhh blargity.

Breath. Breathing.  Sigh...... Uggg.  You know that whole saying when something goes wrong everything goes wrong. I feel a bit like that right now. I'm trying to be positive about it and not get myself worked up and have an anxiety attack. That is what normal or maybe it would be abnormal me would do in this situation.
1st off I'm exhausted. I have a painful sunburn on my back and shoulders from yard selling Saturday. I also have a disgusting irritating cold sore...ICK!.. I feel so tired and I just have no energy. I came home from work yesterday and took an hour nap, had this weird burst of energy like I knew there was a billion things I needed to do and so I got 4 baskets of laundry folded and put away. Had dinner, watch TV with my guys, fell asleep, then Jared woke me up to go to bed.  I even slept in a tiny little bit this morning.  What the heck is wrong with me? 

On top of that it seems like we are getting no where on our house, I know I need to invest in some major PATIENCE... but it seems like each task is taking wayyyyy longer than necessary.  I really think Jared and I needed to take off a couple of weeks to get everything done.  We are hopefully going to get further on it this weekend.  Hopefully. :/

Another thing... I just got a call from the college I go to and they were letting me know that my two classes I NEEDED are canceled this summer and that in order to keep my loan for my online class, I'd have to add an unnecessary class.  WHAT? And believe me.... I'm CANT fork over 900 dollars right now for a class.  I have yet to decided what to do.  I'm getting stressed again.  All of this happened right before I headed into work.... ukk.  Nothing like just being super tired, stressed, not to mention I'm pretty sure I'm having allergy problems... and then having to go into work.  Oh well. I'm off tomorrow... but my list is endless for tomorrow... and it probably will be for awhile... gah!

Anyway that is my rant for the day.

A Fresh Start to Summer!

I've decided I needed to do some things different starting today.  My family and I are going to be extremely busy the next month with moving and setting up our house.  I also want to soak up every moment with my little man before he goes to kindergarten this fall.  So I think I'm just going to get off of facebook for the summer and I will decide if I want to get back on it next fall or not.  I did it last August and it was a much needed break.  I'm making a must needed things to do list I need to do with my fellas this summer anyway! For me I'm making a list as well, like reading, swimming, organizing, road trips, picnics, and of course taking lots of pictures. 

 

I found some pictures Jett had taken with my phone camera when we were at the new house, one is of the living room, this will definitely HAVE to be painted... yuck.  haha.  Jared was also wanting to put linoleum down on the floor too.  On the right is a fireplace, it's pretty!  I'm not real thrilled about the ceiling, but that's one of those further down the road jobs.  Right now we are just wanting to get it decent to live it...haha. I will take more pictures later when we REALLY get started.  Next weekend we are painting the outside of it and putting some sheet rock up in the garage.  Hopefully we will all be done with everything and it will pass inspection and we can start on the fun parts like painting the walls and decorating.

I also found this picture of me... ekk! scary!  I just found it funny because Jett took it.  Jared and I were cleaning cracks in the concrete on the front porch so they could pour concrete in them.

I will try and update any pictures about out lovely new adventure on here.

(even if no one reads this...haha)