Awkward should be my first name... uggg.

I don't know what it is that triggers it, but something in me just escapes and I feel like a complete idiot, whe I look back at the situation.  I think I try so hard to act like myself, that I just beome this annoying talkative weirdo.  Ugggg. 

Awkward Girl Strikes Again with Mumbo Jumbo Conversation!

I was sitting with my husband and son eating dinner, when in walks my hopefully future boss lady!  She was also my teacher in a couple of my classes in college, and I will hopefully be student teaching at my home town school district, where she happens to also be the new principal.  That was a bit of a mouthful.   Anyway, I was very friendly throughout our little conversation, but there were times when I was saying all sorts of random things and I could hear how ridiculous I sounded.  I probably sounded more like an excited little kid then a future teacher.  ....Sigh.  I wish they had anti-awkward pills, or some sort of socially-challenged class I could take, because after tonight I just feel really stupid.  BLERGGG. 

Awkwardly Boring.

This is one of my pet peeves with people, I know I do it too sometimes when I'm not thinking straight, but I get it all the time and I'm like... am I really that uninteresting of a person??  You know when someone asks you something and then you start telling them the about this something and then they get distracted by something else that someone else said and so they don't pay attention, and then you realize that they obviously aren't, so you stop talking.  Then maybe if your lucky, they will say something like, "Ohhh sorry, go ahead!" .....and then you just feel like your story is dull and long and is never getting to a point, so you say something like it's no big deal, "Oh that's okay I'll tell you later about it."

I just want to be unawkward for a change, is that so much to ask?  I've tried the whole, embrace your awkwardness phase, and yeah I'm just too awkward to be one of the COOL awkward people... hahaha...

Yes, I am going to be "one" of those mothers.

Not gonna lie.

I'm feeling an enormous amount of anxiety right now.

Almost to the point of throwing up, and part of that could be the fact that I need to eat something and I've been drinking diet soda all morning.  Stupid hypoglycemic-ness. 

Anyway.  I was reading on FB that someone asked about the first day of school, and they said the 15th.  I was like oh, well that's still a lot of time still.  So I looked at a calendar for August.  BAD IDEA.  I saw that I pretty much have ONE WEEK till then.

ONE WEEK.

Until This baby boy of mine...

Goes to Kindergarten.  Oh jeeezeee...

How in the world did time pass by so quickly?? :(

Sigh.....

I know I'm going to let him ride the bus, because he wanted to so bad, but that first day I want to take him there.  I probably should charge my camera now...haha.  Uggg.  Homeschooling doesn't sound so bad right now. hahaha! I know this will be good for him though.  Recently I read an amazing book that had a few paragraphs that the main character was telling about her candid thoughts about parenting.  It made me laugh, and I was secretly agreeing with her too....

"I’m unclear about the fine line of good parenting and being overly protective. He wants to walk to a friend’s house; I want him to stay inside and draw while I sit on the front porch with a shotgun across my lap like Granny Clampett.”  .... hehe. :)  Traveling Mercies by Anne Lamott... pretty interesting read.

After this week is over, I'm going to be finally finished with my summer classes, so my plan is to start making a routine for us.  Waking up, getting ready, ORGANIZATION, and bedtimes.

Wish me luck... because I know I'm going to need it. 

I plan on being an emotional mess that first day.  Yep.  I will be one of those moms. 

Book Love!

Ahhh new books! I can't wait to finish up my full week of dreadful essays and research papers and to start reading my new books that came today!! :)

I've wanted to read the superhero book for awhile. Anything to guide me in a positive direction with my son. Then A Fresh-Brewed Life was recommended in one of my classes and I was very curious to read it.

Maybe this is a new beginning for me, finally getting in the groove again with reading books! That is until I have no time for anything else when school starts...

The Smallest Details

Of my awesome kitchen, that I'm so proud of!!!

I'm pretty sure everyone looked at me like I was crazy and I had no sense of style when I told them what my plans were for my kitchen. I knew exactly what I wanted. I feel very blessed that I had a husband that let me do just that even if he looked at me weird when I told him I wanted a yellow fridge! :)

We are getting the final touches done to the kitchen, I just have a few more things I want to get for the walls, but for the time being I wanted to share the small little details that I love so much! .... And sorry about the picture quality! My big camera needed charged so I just used my phone.

Strange Happenings.

Some random mumbo jumbo.


I'm reading an amazing book. Traveling Mercies. I Love the author's candidness and humor.  Soooo good!! I'm going to have to find more of her books!

Why is it when I'm not doing anything to lose weight and I'm pretty sure the last two weeks have been nothing but laziness and junky food, apparently I lose weight?  I've had a handful of people ask me or rather tell me it looked like I was losing weight. ahhhh. Makes me feel so much better.  I guess the not so stressed out self is better for me.

I've finally caught up on the new episodes of True Blood, and I missed it so much! It's sooooo good! I wish it was on all the time or at least I wish I had HBO.

Yep that's about it, partly because I'm so tired I'm falling asleep writing this.

I didn't forget you ol' bloggity bloo!

I've finally found a little down time, so I knew I needed to give my blog a little attention.
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.. Some new things.  A little more settled into our house, yet still a billion things that need to get done, but they are slowly getting done.

 Last week I was completely stressed out, my grandma fell, broke her hip and my entire family was up at the hospital and I couldn't be because I had a pile of online homework that HAD to be done by midnight.  Not to mention some crazy work drama that had come to my attention as well.  BLEH!  I was so flustered this time last week, but so so sooooo much better today.  I got my homework completed earlier and my family and I have had a really nice relaxing day together.

Yesterday Jared and his dad worked on the kitchen floors, they weren't in the best shape ever and I'm pretty sure someone could have fell through them if they jumped on it hard enough.  I'm getting very excited for my awesome black and white tiles to be laid down!!!! EEKKK!  My dream kitchen is finally beginning to come together (even if it's not a big kitchen).

Oh yeah, and Jared and I have enjoyed sitting our back deck while Jett played in the big back yard.  It has been so nice to just sit outside and not be bothered by people watching you, or the neighbor kids coming over and then you being the one to watch them while their grandparents or parents go do something apparently much more important.  I'm SOOOOOO GLAD we have MOVED!  I will be even happier when we get a privacy fence put up on one side of our house just for the extra privacy.  So so HAPPY! Now for some random pictures!

 My two handsome boys chilling out in our new backyard.

A goofy boy in his new hideout, a dishwasher box!

One of my pinterest projects! 

Book rack for Jett.  I also have a yellow one for myself as well. 

My NEW OVEN!!!

 We thought about getting a used white one and spray painting it red, but we couldn't find any white ones that were really in that great of shape and then we couldn't find any SAFE OVEN spray paint, so we just decided to get black appliances.

 Love my kitchen and all my stuff I have for it goes sooooo well together!!

my purple bedroom!

Jett's new car bed from Grandma and papa!

I love the new color of our shed, and no it's not this color of blue... it's almost the same color as my kitchen, more like a teal.  It was very weird that every time I took a picture of the shed the color wouldn't come out like it really was.  Anyway it looks awesome!



LOVING MY NEW HOUSE!

Still lots of stuff to do to our house, but here's a sneek peek!

My CLOCK!

MY Bathroom

My kitchen and my hubby

 MY YELLOW FRIDGE!!!

My little guy's room!

So excited for our new adventures here.

More pictures to come soon.