Hmmmmmmm......
The list of things that URK me is honestly quite large, but I've really tried to behave myself and let a LOT of little things slide by me without causing some sort of dramatic showdown. Lately though... I'm just about to lose it with people. I think it's partly because I'm exhausted from working almost everyday on the new house. Today we decided to take a day off and just bum out. I feel super slouchy and sleepy and groggy. I've slept probably a little too much today. Anyway, back to my lurvely list. I think I'm just going to start numbering them.
1. My mom.
Oh my word. Gripe-fest. She told me this week that she thought the house we bought looked like a "dump" before we started working on it. Then we painted our garage door deep red and she said she "doesn't care for it, it makes the house look shorter." I'm pretty sure if we bought a PERFECT house that she would gripe about something. We've worked so hard on this house, and there is nothing we can do about the inside of it yet until closing. The house hasn't been lived in a long time and it's a old house, so yeah there is a musty old house smell. My mom told my sister in law yesterday while I went into another room that "This house smells so bad!" My patience with her is about to break. I've always tried to do the whole.."If you don't have anything nice to say than don't say anything at all", but sometimes I really think she needs to HEAR what I have to say. Sigh....... I think when we finally get settled in, Jared, Jett, and I will be major hermits from family for a while.
2. My other relative (she who shall not be named) <--- for a little dramatic effect.
She's about 15 years older than me I believe. She's burned every bridge that people have built for her. She's had every excuse in the book. She's so very very dramatic. She doesn't talk to you unless there is something major going on, or if there is something dramatic happening in some other relatives lives she wants to know whats going on. She has to be the center of attention or she gets just crazy. She's in her 40's but usually acts like she's 16. She has borrowed a ton... of money from her friends and family and hasn't even tried to pay it back. She thinks that when she's in town, everyone should stop what they have planned and plan something with her (this drives me insane). She's caused a lot of unwanted chaos, stirs up drama, and just really makes everyone mad. ......this is only half of it. What really URKS me is... she claims she's a christian woman. She's very vocal about being christian. The only thing is she does this all on facebook. Instead of apologizing for something... or trying to finding out what she can do to better herself she claims everyone else is in the wrong because they aren't doing what is right by God and forgiving her. She wrote a passage from the bible the other day about forgiveness and it's so crazy to me because how do we forgive her for the things she's done when she hasn't even tried to make amends with anyone, even herself. At one time I thought she really had her stuff together and was really TRYING, but the last few episodes of hers have really thrown that out the window. It sucks even more because I reached out to her when things in her life were really going down hill, I went out of my way to be there for her and it really didn't seem to phase her much. Now that I've had my eyes opened to what all is going on with her and what she has done, just disgusts me honestly and it's sad that she has to put the words of GOD on facebook to try and make us feel guilty. I really wish she could just look at herself in the mirror and see how much she's just torturing herself and her family. I think most of us have went to just ignoring her, because once you give her any attention at all, she just walks all over you. I hate it, because I use to love being around her and hearing her stories and hearing her giggle. Now I just don't know what to think. :(
3. What the heckaroo is up with my body?!?!
This has nothing to do with anyone but myself. Here I've worked almost a constant week on our house, REAL LABOR PEOPLE!!! hahaa! I thought maybe this will help me shed some pounds!!! Nope. Gaining it back again. Ugggg. Not to mention my face is so broke out horribly now from all the chemicals outside. It's all just disgusting believe me. I haven't worried about wearing make-up while working on the house because I usually just end up getting paint splattered on my face or it just sweats off. I'm so stinking chubby, but I've come to the conclusion that pretty much any kind of stress whether it be exciting stress or just plain bad stress really messes with my eating behaviors. Even though I thought I was eating normally, I know for a fact I was drinking a lot of soda because I felt drained of energy. We did eat more fast food this week because of going back and forth to the new house (stupid decision). So this week I really need to get my act together, since I'm not going up there as much.
4. We have to wait another week before we close on the house.... BOO! :(
Yeah... this URKS me, but I know that it also might be good for Jared and I because we do need time to get all of our stuff purged, sorted, and packed at our present home. Plus having another week may give us more time to plan on some of the ideas for the inside of the new house as well.
Sorry for the super long post... but I needed to get some of the BLEHHH stuff off my chest, that way you don't have to read a whole weeks worth of it. :) I will try with some more happier posts later on.
Sunday, June 3, 2012
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Feeling Old, Fat, and Annoyed.
Today I was sitting around a table with four other girls, all of which are quite a bit younger than me, at least 6 or 7 years younger. I've come to like these ladies quite a bit, they are all super nice. Today though, I decided how old and fat I really felt being around them. They are all tan, super skinny, beach blondish hair, and just gorgeous girls. Believe me when I say it's a bit depressing some days. If I didn't feel super fugly before, I definitely do now! hahaha! Actually I do enjoy most... most of the conversations I have with them. Today though it was about having babies, gaining weight, losing weight, how much everyone weighed at the end of their pregnancies, boobs, boob jobs, stretch marks and so on and so forth. I opted out of that conversation for the most part. Sometimes I'm better off saying nothing. It really sucks when someone says they got HUGE when they were 9 months and weighed 160lbs... and here I am, not prego and 185lbs. Ugg. :( There's always some sort of conversation about their bodies and really what can I add to that conversation??? Ummm yeah so I've been struggling with my weight for a good three years now, trying every diet under the sun. I eat healthy food, but that's obviously not working for me. It just sucks. I literally feel like the big elephant in the room. Honestly, it's really childish but it makes me wonder a little what is said about me when I'm not there. Fat girl jokes? Oh why doesn't she just work out a little, it's not that hard??? Why on earth was she wearing that, does she know how she looks?? .... ya I know, they probably don't say anything like that, but I can't help but think it in my head. There was also at one point that I wanted to bang my head against the table.... really I did! One girl said.... "I'd always have so much money when I waited tables and guys would come in, I'd get some really huge tips from them" I was like... wow. Really? Let's not brag anymore about how hot we are, I'm pretty sure everyone KNOWS!! That one was driving me insane, she kept interrupting everyone with something SHE needed to say and it was always either bragging about herself or degrading something about someone. I was like... please shoot me now! Anyway that about sums my lovely little day today.
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
My Favorite Boy in the WORLD!
A little bit about my milk and cookies-mustached buddy boy.
Jett Asher Day
age 5
Red Headed
Brown Eyed
Cutie Patootie!
Loves to Dance
(this boy has some serious moves!!)
Loves to eat pop-tarts, pizza, lunchables, nutrigrain bars, chicken nuggets, spaghetti noodles (no sauce), and salads.
Loves Music
(Loves anything with a good beat)
Love Movies
( Loves Wizard of Oz and anything superhero related)
Loves Books
( Loves his Dr. Seuss Books)
Loves Kool-Aid
Loves to make up silly words and pretend he speaks another language
Loves to play outside
Loves to tackle and wrestle with Dad
Loves to cuddle with Mom
Love this guy!
Can't believe he's growing up so fast.
Thursday, May 24, 2012
A House of a Different Color.
So right now I'm trying to picture this color scheme (bottom picture) with the house we are buying (top picture). This is what my husband said HE WANTED... only he kept saying black trim, but I couldn't find any pictures of just black trim. I really do like the black shutters and red door though. Our door is reddish right now, but it needs to be repainted. I like it. I think it will add a little character to our house. It also needs some major landscaping around the front too.
Anyway... we got good news this evening ... so I'm a little less stressed than I was earlier. I can breath! This weekend is going to be fun... even though it's going to be work, at least we are making progress.
Giddy about the Strangest Things....
So lately to keep my mind off of the negative parts of all this house stuff... I keep thinking about how I want my house to look. There is one thing I HAVE TO HAVE... that I have always wanted.... some sort of booth or banquette for a kitche table and seating. Always Always wanted one! My bestaroo has a really cute wooden banquette and it fits really good in her kitchen. Here is a picture of the kitchen right now, be aware we have not started working on anything inside yet, so this WILL change. I'm debating about painting the cabinets white, but not sure the color scheme yet. I'm also determined to have black and white tile flooring too. I've wanted that since I was young. I tried to get my mom and dad to let me have black and white tile flooring when they built their new house when I was 13. It didn't happen. So now... that is one of my have to dos!
The kitchen now...
I'm hoping to hear good news tonight. It could go either way tonight, but I'm trying to keep positive about all of this instead of stressing even more. I just wish we could officially say the house is ours now... but it won't be for a few weeks. :/ Blerg.
The kitchen now...
So I'm thinking there maybe enough room along that wall to easily put at least the bench part and possibly the wrap around part of a banquette.
Uggg. I can't wait to get working on this kitchen... It needs a transformation bad. I wish I had LOTS of money to put into it. We also have to get new appliances for it as well. I keep picturing my black and white tile floors and white cabinets... I just don't know what color of walls I want yet. Something that makes it pop! Anyway... here's some of my banquette I would LOVE to have!!!!
I just put this one on here because it's almost the same
concept. I love the bookcase turned bench. I'd love to do this
in Jett's room. It would be a GREAT way to store his endless amount of little toys!!
I'm pretty sure this one ^ is my favorite.
I just really like the colors with it and it has the look I think
I'm aiming for... a little retroish..
I'm hoping to hear good news tonight. It could go either way tonight, but I'm trying to keep positive about all of this instead of stressing even more. I just wish we could officially say the house is ours now... but it won't be for a few weeks. :/ Blerg.
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
Ohhhh blargity.
Breath. Breathing. Sigh...... Uggg. You know that whole saying when something goes wrong everything goes wrong. I feel a bit like that right now. I'm trying to be positive about it and not get myself worked up and have an anxiety attack. That is what normal or maybe it would be abnormal me would do in this situation.
1st off I'm exhausted. I have a painful sunburn on my back and shoulders from yard selling Saturday. I also have a disgusting irritating cold sore...ICK!.. I feel so tired and I just have no energy. I came home from work yesterday and took an hour nap, had this weird burst of energy like I knew there was a billion things I needed to do and so I got 4 baskets of laundry folded and put away. Had dinner, watch TV with my guys, fell asleep, then Jared woke me up to go to bed. I even slept in a tiny little bit this morning. What the heck is wrong with me?
On top of that it seems like we are getting no where on our house, I know I need to invest in some major PATIENCE... but it seems like each task is taking wayyyyy longer than necessary. I really think Jared and I needed to take off a couple of weeks to get everything done. We are hopefully going to get further on it this weekend. Hopefully. :/
Another thing... I just got a call from the college I go to and they were letting me know that my two classes I NEEDED are canceled this summer and that in order to keep my loan for my online class, I'd have to add an unnecessary class. WHAT? And believe me.... I'm CANT fork over 900 dollars right now for a class. I have yet to decided what to do. I'm getting stressed again. All of this happened right before I headed into work.... ukk. Nothing like just being super tired, stressed, not to mention I'm pretty sure I'm having allergy problems... and then having to go into work. Oh well. I'm off tomorrow... but my list is endless for tomorrow... and it probably will be for awhile... gah!
Anyway that is my rant for the day.
1st off I'm exhausted. I have a painful sunburn on my back and shoulders from yard selling Saturday. I also have a disgusting irritating cold sore...ICK!.. I feel so tired and I just have no energy. I came home from work yesterday and took an hour nap, had this weird burst of energy like I knew there was a billion things I needed to do and so I got 4 baskets of laundry folded and put away. Had dinner, watch TV with my guys, fell asleep, then Jared woke me up to go to bed. I even slept in a tiny little bit this morning. What the heck is wrong with me?
On top of that it seems like we are getting no where on our house, I know I need to invest in some major PATIENCE... but it seems like each task is taking wayyyyy longer than necessary. I really think Jared and I needed to take off a couple of weeks to get everything done. We are hopefully going to get further on it this weekend. Hopefully. :/
Another thing... I just got a call from the college I go to and they were letting me know that my two classes I NEEDED are canceled this summer and that in order to keep my loan for my online class, I'd have to add an unnecessary class. WHAT? And believe me.... I'm CANT fork over 900 dollars right now for a class. I have yet to decided what to do. I'm getting stressed again. All of this happened right before I headed into work.... ukk. Nothing like just being super tired, stressed, not to mention I'm pretty sure I'm having allergy problems... and then having to go into work. Oh well. I'm off tomorrow... but my list is endless for tomorrow... and it probably will be for awhile... gah!
Anyway that is my rant for the day.
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